Life Has Sent Us Down Another Path
This is a post I hoped I would never have to write but I feel that I owe my readers, visitors and especially my partner in PAC, Lesly Federici and all of the PAC members an apology and explanation for my disappearing act and the poor way that I handled things.
As you may or may not know, I am also caregiver to my second Mom who is suffering from Alzheimer’s Dementia. For the last five years, she has been doing very well and I was able to pretty much devote full-time attention to PAC, my writing and my online interests.
Over the last few months she has declined more and more in what she is able to do and not do, therefore she is needing more of my time than ever before. I tried for a few months to manage both my online work and duties at PAC but realized I was not giving my best to Mom or to the PAC Community. I was making many mistakes online and forgetting responsibilities which made things much harder on Lesly and Kathryn and it wasn’t fair to them or to PAC.
I started having panic attacks again which I have had under control now for the last five years. So after much soul-searching and also increased demands on my time from Mom, I had to make a choice. We don’t want to put her in a home but it may come to that one day but until then, the majority of my time will be spent keeping her occupied during the day and I will do the best I can for her.
My time online now is limited to a few hours in the morning before her “sun-downing” begins and the hours after she goes to bed.
This kills me that I had to make this choice and hurts like the dickens because I was finally being able to do what I wanted to do online for so long.
So, I will still be around, just not as much as usual. I am streamlining as much as I can to keep my presence online alive with my blogs, continue my writing and still be able to do some self-publishing work for hire.
I am thankful for everything I have and so many friends online that have supported me in everything I’ve done but once again, life has taken me down a different path.
I have not given up my dreams and I will be back full time but until that time, I have another job to do.
I will keep in touch with all of you, as much as I can.
Sending my love and hugs to each of you. I miss everyone already.